Thanks, again, SkeezyKS…

Just because something is not "wrong", that doesn't necessarily make it "right" either. Even though I "think" I sometimes am trying to set up "safe" parameters to deal with everything, as you mentioned, people lie sometimes and I would be very upset if I influenced someone in a negative way like that. (In fact, that was being discussed in another thread and I actually believe that sometimes people lie online and we need to be careful, but I couldn't see it as clearly at my OWN situation, so I am glad you brought that point up for me to consider).

I think my best bet right now is to channel my energies elsewhere and get to "work" on a productive project. When I was working, these urges were not preoccupying my time or attention at all during the day and only occasionally at night, so I think it will be good for me to "work" on another project until I am working again.

In fact, maybe it will be healthy for me to journal some of my experiences and try to uncover what I may need to be working through and why I am needing to process and revisit those experiences right now. Journaling would also help me deal with everything that's been going on in my life over the past few years. Then, I might need to process this with a therapist in the future and/or learn to work through this more productively on my own. Maybe that can either help me with my readiness for a relationship in the future or it could also help me learn to be content with being alone, if that's how I can be healthiest.

Thanks for your advice! I appreciate it!