I never had any favorite alters. I was diagnosed as an adult and my alters were never the imaginary friend type. they took control any time I was triggered by something. to me that meant I was losing track of time, constantly did not know what was happening, people telling me I did things I did not remember doing. imagine going to work one moment and the next sitting at the doctors clad in a paper gown and not knowing why you are there or even able to answer the question what day is it. imagine feeling numb, spaced out disconnected as a normal thing and feeling angry, happy, sad, excited was the abnormal to me...

favorites ? no my alters were not my favorites nor my invisible friends. they were disruptions in my life, they were chaos, they were confusion, they were the holders of my emotions, trauma's and took control any time I was triggered/dissociated...they were anything but my friends and favorites.

for me DID affected every aspect of my life, each had their own sense of agency that was different than mine. no common ground other than we shared the same body. I am not integrated into one whole person again and would never change that.