All of a sudden I was drawing and I was able to draw a situation that I normally find quite painful I drew my mother saying I needed to marry a portuguese boy or I wouldn't be accepted in this family. I know my mother wants me to marry a portuguese boy but when she kept saying it she has no idea how tied and controlled I felt. In this picture I had her saying that to me while I had a chain on my leg and I am dragging a heavy bolder with me. It all has symbolism the boulder symblisizes the baggage of feeling like I have to do everything in my power to please my mother. I am wearing a blue corset dress with a veil and my tears are coating the ground. When I was drawing this a lot of grief and pain was moving around in my heart. Though my mother only wanted the best her saying I need to marry a portuguese man made me feel like I couldn't be who ever I wanted to be. I felt powerless because it was like my mother was taking my power away to chose what I want for myself and that meant everything to me.
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