Thank you for your reply! Generally, my mother is an adult child of the alcoholics and my father was raised by a very hostile man with autistic tendencies and obsessive compulsive disorder that took over his life and still does. My father is himself pretty immature, responsibility avoiding and has a low tolerance for frustration, which makes him quite ADHD like.
Despite English not being my first language, I have very high verbal abilities, but it doesn't always make me that bright in real life (I struggle with speech, for example). When it comes to my parents, I have a lot of understanding, but I still feel very hurt and angry from time to time, I just realize I cannot show it the way I did while being a teenager. Yesterday I had a meltdown due to not passing my university entry exam from Maths for the third year and was so frustrated I almost broke my own hand. My father had made some annoying comment about it and I told him to **** off, so it's not like I'm the most calm person on Earth. Now he's giving me silent treatment.
And despite my generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder and ocd, I always felt like there is something more to that. I have an amazing long term memory so I remember exactly how I was as a child with great detail. I have many AS and ADD traits, such as troubles with motor skills, short term memory, I've been very opposite defiant as a kid and teenager, still have problems with authorities, my visual skills are almost non existent (I have difficulty with driving and Maths and dancing and all that kind of stuff, everything non verbal), I have meltdowns and troubles with regulating my emotions (which makes me pretty bipolar but I try to avoid that diagnosis, as it's pretty misunderstood and overdiagnosed), I'm an underachiever, I'm impulsive (I never know how enough is enough), my gait, body posture and eye contact are poor, I'm very sensitive to stimuli and possess many other traits that I think fall either under ADD or Asperger's diagnosis. I wouldn't have so much to say if I weren't obsessed with neuropsychology and self evaluation. I do it since I was a teen.
I had around 4 psychiatrists in the past, I had to ask for it each time (quit after my bad journey with SSRI meds), one psychologist that didn't help me much and also had a speech therapist for a short amount of time. I was at a one meeting with family therapist but my parents just pretended to be nice and then said they won't do it.
Now, I'm undergoing some neurological tests from my own money and would love to visit someone specializing in neurodevelopmental disorders to check my suspicions, but that requires more money and a trip to another town. And I do not have a stable job right now because it's really hard to find in such a small town as mine. There is that lady who takes care of kids with ADD and AS but she can also check for adults.

And no, I'm not taking any psychiatric meds since around 4 years. I just take some for my pituitary gland/thyroid disfunction and some supplements. And beta blokers from time to time.