Im pretty sure I have borderline personality disorder. I was originally trying to find out about an unrelated symptom, one that I now think is my just my own slight twist. The thing is I dont want to walk into the doctors &start reeling off all the symptoms of bpd i have (i forget stuff so i want to take notes) because im worried the doc will think ive just convinced myself i have it. I have just broken up with my live-in partner & my temper tantrums, suicidal thoughts &self harm fixation are getting worse.