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Originally Posted by Tangerine87
Things couldn't be any worse. I really want to die. Nobody cares about me. I lost a couple of friends, and the one friend I had left is kind of distant with me. I guess the domino effect. People know your weak spots and they attack you.
I don't have any reason to live. I'm really tired of my life. Meds aren't working. Sometimes there really is no hope. How much longer can I suffer? Is suicide justified when there is nothing left to do? Just pain and suffering.
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I am SOOOO sorry you are here Tangerine. I have no words that can change how you feel, but I can say that no matter how much you feel like nobody can understand, I do believe many people here not only sympathize and empathize, but have actually been there.
I myself am fighting this battle as we speak also, with the difference that instead of having people leaving me, I just haven't had any real friends (aquaintances only), so I do feel for you as I think it is easier for me to have been without then have people be there then leave. I am so sorry that is happening to you.
Of course nobody knows the future and being in the bottom of the pit right now myself, the only thing I can say that I do believe for sure is that no matter how things are right now, they do change. Personally, I have only had a few times of thinking I might get out of the pit, but even those few times make me KNOW that change is possible!!! The only way to have NO CHANCE at change is if you aren't here anymore to have a chance, so no matter what, don't take that chance away!
Hang in there and do what I am doing right now and drive the poor people of psychcentral crazy with lots of posts if that will get you from moment to moment until you feel a little better. I also hope you are contacting somebody about new meds to see if that will help. So no matter what, don't give up!!!