The reason im so worried is that I live in the UK and i would have to rely on nhs for my treatment, and everytime ive been to the doctor before (granted not with this insight, half of the stuff I just thought was me, I was just a bad and weak person). So I also thought I was simply depressed. Ive asked for a therapist before but they just gave me drugs.. Which never took unless it was to overdose on them so I could trip a little..