Hi deedee85 and welcome to PC.

I'm sorry you are feeling so badly right now. Trying to self diagnose is not always a good thing. Any tests you may take online or any information you look up should only be used as a guide...not as a diagnosis. Please don't label yourself without having a work up done by a licensed mental health provider.

It sounds to me like you really should be seeing someone and very soon. They can help you with therapy and/or meds if needed. Please....be good to yourself and make a call to get evaluated. You deserve to help yourself and to feel better. You can write down what your issues are and during the evaluation you will be asked questions. They will go over everything and make a diagnosis.

I wish you well deedee and hope you feel better soon. Keep posting here and I'm sure there will be a lot of support coming your way. Best of luck to you!

Hugsss
sabby