First of all who are the Samaritans?

(((HUGS N THANX AMANDA)))... I was dxd I think just over a yr ago. My experiences with this have been very similar. Life long accusations and coming to in hospitals / various other situations with no clue no memory no logical defense. HELL. 2yrs ago dxd with amnesia in ER. Thought possibly another head injury. I've apparently had a few in my life. Tests and scans came back negative for concussion. Observed and monitored for next 5 days. No signs of physical/ neuro causation..so Dissociative Amnesia. Since then, I started researching and investigating past instances.....CAUTOUSLY...causally and lightly asking friends/ SO (not family..don't trust them).. kinds like hey..remember that time ^insert whatever had been previously been relayed^....well I guess my memory must be starring to go or I think I was really out of it...cuz I was thinking and I can seem to place any details..lol you know me such a scatterbrain :P... so can you help jog my memory?...Horror Stories.. embarassing, weird, scary, scary stuff... not all were out of control or overtly bizzare, but cetainly out of character. Of course there are other things to..the stuff that I was confronted about in angry acussitory ways, that I had quickly said anything scrambling to justify or deny plausibly too...these were the things I didn't dare rehash, but starting working hard w/ T and self journals to recall the barrage of info that had been intialy presented to me. While processing and trying to connect all these things in therapy...other parts started to step forward to my therapist. Also started having my SO record/ document odd behaviors, speach, dress etc.. it all started to collide and then a perfect storm of PTSD triggering and new stressor and general shock of all of the stuff that had been agonizing me for yrs...I broke, the flood gates gave way and I lost a few months time almost entirely. Other parts took over as themselves automously. Some were aware of others and myself and legal identity, had factual knowledge regarding our family, upbringing,and knew my kids and SO and apparently felt as much attached (in different facets) to "my life" as I did/do...others would be just as confused about where they were and how they got their as I had been in past. Had completely different lives/memories...and some just were..those ones less distinct in own identity..they would go about whatever it was that they did/ do, disregarding ppl, environment and anything that was not involved in their "mission"..odd. Like a coyote or assassin...blank, focused... ....since then, been working hard on integration, always hyper vigilant of date and time and when things get stressful and disregulated...I isolate. Now things are up and down ( this time of year is very strong trigger).. but progress has been made too. Somethings can only be explained in storytelling/ imaginary friend like form. Certain familiarities, feelings, thoughts that I have some awareness of the fact of where I am who I am with and that I am speaking..like stream of consciousness rambling really...I start off with clear intentions and control and then idk I find I've been going on and on for like 20+ mind in a foggy state and start realizing what I'm saying, but can stop and have no clue why or where exactly the info and/or distress over topic comes from..meat puppet. Sometimes, I feel like there is some colussion, continuity, or less bothered by time loss bc clear evidence been left behind, parts I have come to trust,some almost feel like i actually know...and a couple that I can feel myself becoming and sometimes can calm or talk out of taking over completely.. these are the good things and times..I'm fearful that a backslide is beggining to occur. So do I have favorites???...yes and no. None of it is fun, none of it is easy, none of it can I ever find accurate wording to describe or understand or relate...only vague sensations...but now b having forced myself to hear, watch, and own it... yes there are certainly some I am very relieved to find were out..given some of the now known alternatives.