We are not psychiatrists, so we can't tell you if you are psychotic or not. But I have heard people say if you can ask if you are psychotic, you probably are not.

I can tell that you are very anxious right now, and that seems like your biggest problem. Can you take something for anxiety (a benzo, like Xanax, Klonopin, Valium, or Ativan)? If you don't have something to take, can you make a doctor's appointment ASAP to see if you can get put on a medication for anxiety?

My best advice is to get distracted. Talk about ANYTHING but how you feel and your worries. Get some exercise. Dance to your favorite music. Do a guided meditation. Get busy helping other people. Watch a funny movie.

You really don't seem psychotic. It seems like anxiety. Practice some deep-breathing and do anything you can to help the anxiety. Tell yourself "this is not a psychosis thing, this is an anxiety thing." Trust your family and friends to tell you if you are out of touch with reality or not. If they are not concerned that you are psychotic, you probably are not.

Do you have a good therapist you can talk to about this? I'd get an appointment with him/her ASAP as well as your doctor about the anxiety. You will be okay.