Okay so. I finally found a job. I think I'll really like the place. That's great news! Bad news: I chickened out on negotiating better pay even when they clearly expected me to. And I don't need higher pay, but the memory of shortchanging myself tortures me (translation: I now feel stupid).

I left T a message earlier so I can tell him about the job (will have to figure out when I can do therapy now), but I guess I'll also want to talk to him about how to control obsessive thinking. I mean, why can't I just enjoy the good without tormenting myself for mistakes?

I'm not sure this is a strictly therapy-related post (in spite of that last paragraph), but I wanted you guys to know where I'm at. I was so worried about work for so long, and now I can't be happy because I'm obsessing and feeling stupid. What's wrong with me?!

Sidony