I'm still itchy and sick. I need to get my azz to a doctor for allergy testing and a possible solution to my ongoing sickness and itching. I'm depressed but it's situational from being sick. I'm at the point where I feel like I can't go on, but not where I feel I'd be doing myself and everyone a favor by ending it. I stopped taking my pills again. I'm really confused about them. I have two conflicting messages going on about the pills and I can't make a decision. Part of me wants to tell my doc I want med free options only, the other part tells me that if I have another episode, it will be my own fault. I think I might just be eccentric and prone to nervous breakdowns and not have bipolar. Why can't they do a brain scan and be sure???