{{{{{Wendy}}}}}}}}}}

You do - effort equals results. This would be a time to regroup for me - nothing to be coming at me stress-wise, time to think, hopefully clearly.

I talked to my pdoc today and we are setting up a plan where every couple of months I can go to the hospital for a two or three day stay - a safety net if you will.

It will give me an alternative to cutting/burning/or worse. Just knowing that I can do it will hopefully make things better. He's getting the form ready for me, all I have to do is sign it and then call him when I'm ready to go. He'll call the hospital (which will have a copy of this agreement in their files) and then check myself in as long as there is a room available.

The only thing I have to do is attend any group therapy sessions that are held on the floor during my stay there. I thought that was perfectly understandable and certainly not too much to ask for.

Anytime after tomorrow I may use the first set of days. My pdoc also filled out a form for the hospital billing office detailing the fact that I need to be able to see him and my T - at either no charge, or very little, because of my attempt in September. That will also go through.

I told my pdoc today how very much he is appreciated and that I never thought I would think so highly of anyone again after the time spent with my former T. He was pleased, maybe even embarrassed.....lol. I just wanted him to know how much I realize I can count on him - and that means the world to me........plus he does exactly what he says, all very quickly too.

I'm lucky to have him.