Depressed - pointless depression. Last week mania, so this is the flip side starting. I really want to eat my way through it. Notice I am looking for things to get annoyed at as a way to build energy to counteract the depression. Stormy today, so cannot get outside to feel better. Broke cannot shop. Broke too often to internet window shop - seeing things I cannot afford would sadden me more. Out of shape. Old. Grouchy. Didn't sleep well. --- Maybe that is part of the cause. Made good choice of telling husband what I needed to avoid starting irrational fight. Asked him if I was a good person. (a problem of mine, guilt for no reason). He will reassure me if I need it, leave me alone if I need it, spend time with me if I need it he said, so I just have to identify my issues. I might make myself get up and go shower, and try to make good choices. But for this minute, I am going to stay here in my pj's at 12:30 in the afternoon and do nothing but sulk and mope.