If you are feeling suicidal, go to the ER and tell them you are not safe, they send you home anyways? That is absolutely horrible!!! I'm so sorry you are stuck like this. Do you have anything to distract yourself? Might it be helpful to call a crisis helpline? I wish I had some solid advise on what to do. I hope you have people in your life who can keep an eye on you right now. (((Hugs)))