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Years ago I was put on Paxil because the doctors and I thought I just suffered from depression. It made me have angry outbursts. I threw a chair at my then-fiance and almost got into a fight with someone at a bowling alley. Almost threw a bowling ball at her. Spent money thinking that I was going to start a side business and then not having the energy to follow through when I came down. Got drunk and made an *** of myself at bars, and then was too embarrassed to go back. This last time I bought a ton of stuff from the home improvement center and would spend hours upon hours installing a new backsplash, painting, installing new lighting fixtures, etc, when there was nothing wrong with the old ones. This last time I went overboard and between spending money on medical treatment, household emergencies, and God knows what else, I am now filing for bankruptcy. This after I worked so hard to get an 800 credit score. Blew that all to pieces. I wish that I could just redo my whole entire life from January 2013 on.