She has been in foster care with us waiting for adoption. They took her away 6 days after I complained to the state that I had been verbally and emotionally abused by the agency during a meeting. I had a friend there who can verify more then I as I went away in my head and she heard more then I.I mean during the meeting as the PTSD drags me away. Anyway they said with my physical illnesses I couldn't parent, they thought I was not mentally stable, I was accused of breast feeding this 6 year old. Licensing went through with a fine tooth comb and a microscope and found a few things that I was in violation with but nothing serious. Now they are saying that licensing did not look at the breast feeding closely enough. ARGGGG I have been waiting so long. I am sick in my heart, I need to see her. So now we have an appeal with another district with our attorney representing us. The other district because ours can't be impartial. If we fail here it goes to the commishiner's office. I am not sure of next step except court and we surely can't pay. I am waiting to see if our mortgage refinance gets approved so that we can pay the attorney for the first two steps.

I am crazy must be. I mean what do these people think? I am fighting hard for a child with reactive attachment disorder. Why would we do this unless she was attaching and unless we loved her dearly?