Not a good day today. Erratic emotions, a sudden crash back down to the real world and how much I'm failing in life in the past month, guilt, fear, frustration...and loss. I've been reading about loss lately and I can only get through a chapter of the book at a time because it just hurts.

I'm not going to say I don't know what to do. I do. I don't see any point in talking about it more because I know from experience that it doesn't help and just leads to more shame and worry. It's evening here, so here's hoping tomorrow is better.