I guess I misunderstood her meaning when she said that it was more than she could handle. I thought if I were to go into inpatient/day treatment that overall it would mean I would be too much to handle afterwards.

With a phone call and some emails she let me know that she meant while I was IN treatment she could not see me but after I got out we would continue with outpatient care as soon as my level of risk went back down.

I completely misunderstood her message I think because I constantly feel like people are going to abandon me at any given moment.

I feel so much better now that I understand it more clearly. To now have a clearer head I definitely appreciate the comments of worrying about me and caring so much.

Thank you all for your responses, and I apologize for my stupidity.