I'm already wondering about pdoc, as I have said. The appointments aren't long enough for any type of sexual transgressions, but I'm kind of afraid that's already happened in the past. Stuff like this has gone down before - I had a brief but very guarded conversation with one of her PHCP docs after he'd let her go from treatment, regarding some real disturbing "bargaining attempts" at securing opiates (of course he didn't go into detail, but I got it, plus had a separate discussion with his receptionist).
It upsets me a lot, but I love her dearly & I think I kinda know what she's going through in respect to suffering. She's a sociopath, and really only appears to be able to feel emotionally connected to the world when she's (1). High AF, (2). Having crazy mad sex, and/or (3). She's siphoned them off of me -- I'm BPD & empirical research supports that we feed off of each other.

Thanks for the kind words, they mean a lot to me. Yes, and she knows this as well -- not to pat myself on the back, but I'm pretty amazing to her & I'm very tolerant. She's done a lot of really, really messed up **** to me.