<font color="brown">
It has been a while since I have been on the site and even spoken to many of the members who do know me, and even some who dont'.. I've been dealing with a great many things this past year... I've lost two people I dearly loved with all my heart, One was my uncle who passed away around memorial day. The second was my best firend in the world.. She could make me smile even when it was raining, just a smile left to me on YIM would let me know she was thinking of me..
She fought most of her life with CF... She had a lung transplant in 2004(july) and i quess six monts before July, her body started to reject the lungs, no meds would help. She would get over one bought of sickness then right back into another one.. ( i never knew this was going on) her and I could miss talking for six months because she had 3 step-childern to run all over the place plus she was very active in the church.....

After she died my life changed..I am not sure if it was or is for the better. I've decided I'm not wiccan, Ive chose to go back to church and re-join with the lord... But in doing so I have ran many of my "friends" off because I do not think any of them would understand my reasons....
So all in all.. Finding my love for God is good, but runing off all of the others will hurt me and them in the long run..

I know i'm lost, and I know I can find my way, but I'm just not sure which way is up or down anymore.....



</font>