Yeah true!

I have plenty of good days... it's just I know that the anxiety is there under the surface still & days like today it rears it's head. I don't have much reason to be anxious right now, but what with college starting soon-ish, I will... so need to get it under control soon.

I can't rely on the diazepam I have. I think I have 4 left now out of the 15 I got in April. I don't want to get any more... whole idea was I'd be improving enough on SSRIs to manage without by now but seemingly not.