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Did you then check your email waiting patiently for a reply and not wanting to actually read it?

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yep exactly! i check every 5 minutes to see if she has answered, & when i see a message from her my heart goes & then i have this feeling of intense shame, knowing that she has read my message & must think i'm needy, stupid etc & for a few seconds i can't open the message.Then i open it & first read it very fast to check any hint of "you are ridiculous..." -which i never get..she' s too nice for that.. & when i see that everything's all right i read it about 159 times very carefully....