I have read all threads up to this one. I will take a break now.

All posts have generated more questions in my head. I think back to when "i knew" I was sexually abused and no one believed me because I could not talk. Then there is the therapist who was convinced and then convinced me that I was sexually abused. No memories No memories!!!! Dreams on occassion YES. Smells that don't belong there, YES. Feelings that don't make sense.

I decided a long time ago that if something did happen, I would remember when I was ready to remember. I want to be better. I want to find out the truth so I can lead a happy normal life. I want to stop being so angry. How can I fix this with no memory? I have tried to let this whole thing go because I figured it was just driving me crazy. I figured if I was meant to know, I would remember. But even without memories, it affects my life every day. It affects my husband's life as well.

Hmmmm maybe I should be writing some of this in my journal