I have a question about narcs. I've had a 15 year friendship with a narc and it feels very one sided a lot of the time. He texts me often. I hear when he's proud, frustrated, annoyed and interesting things he reads throughout the day. He never says nice things to me (usually he boasts about how intelligent he is). If he says something about me it's usually neutral or slightly insulting. He says he doesn't give a lot of compliments because he is just hard to impress lol.

I used to feel cared about just because he was texting so frequently. Now I am frightened that I am just narc supply and this makes me feel totally unstable (I think I have a possible disorder or issue of my own because I don't think most people are so impacted by the feelings of others like I am).

Our friendships means so much to me. I would like to know if he could actually care about me? If he could actually miss me? If our friendship could be important? I also dont know how to communicate with him about my feelings. I try not to mention my feelings because I feel like if I do, it annoys him. He dodges questions or finds a way to change the subject. He seems to communicate less for a while afterwards as well.