I imagine there was a conversation going on in your head about whether to do this or not. You were stressed out, upset, hurt, angry, sad, whatever emotion it was...and you thought about SI. Considered it as an option. You fought the idea, and maybe this went on for a bit? I'm just guessing.

It seems to be coping strategy you might turn to when most upset, but then after once....the bar drops for when it's OK to use it, ya know? Like today you said the trigger wasn't that big. Just know I worry about you.

I'll support you no matter what, but you gotta put that bar back up high. I need you to be safe. Hugs!

emmy