(((HUGS)))
We all make mistakes. We all have regrets. And we all carry the burden of them. This world can be so random, cruel, and unrelenting sometimes... Things happen and we wish we could go back and change that one tiny action or moment that maybe could undo the the past...but there is no way of truly ever knowing, even a different course could have resulted in the same outcome. It sounds like you have been/ paying greatly for your mistake. Living with our actions and the world's judgement is more than punishment enough for anything that you could have done...Please don't beat yourself up further....It was an accident...you have accepted the blame for your part in it, but don't take the on all the blame for infinite randomness of the universe too! ... I know it feels dark and hopeless right now, but YOU ARE NOT A MISTAKE! and THIS ONE ACTION DOES NOT DEFINE WHO YOU ARE! You are here in this world for a reason and the fact that you are still here means that one incident was not your purpose for being, you are still here which means you are still needed that you have not fulfilled your purpose in this life... and we as humans are not just one thing we are many things. The worst is behind you..which means that you have to believe the best is yet to come Please Hang in there..and be kind gentle and forgiving to yourself.
" after the darkest night; dawns the light of a new day.."