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Originally Posted by hazn
Well, if you're trying to be a better person in order to please others then I can understand your decision to give up. But, if you're doing it because you sincerely believe it to be the right thing to do... then no, it doesn't make any sense. We do the right thing because it's the right thing to do, not because of any external factor.
Also, it's unlikely you'll convince anyone who you've previously mistreated that you're trying to change/have changed. I'm not saying it can't happen over a long period of time, but its not going to come easy.
I hope you'll reconsider.
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For me I have never wanted to change because of some external trigger. It is because I genuinely want to be a better person. The life I was living was utterly empty, devoid of everything that makes me human and I wound up really hating that after awhile. The way I wound up existing due to my choices was something I wound up being unable to tolerate, hence my change in attitude.
I don't have any delusions that the people I've harmed will ever think I've changed, I don't expect that out of them and never will.
I posted this mostly because I just needed to rant about how it seems like because I've openly acknowledged my past behavior, that I seem to be held up to a way higher standard than anyone else. That can really infuriate me at times, but I also know that it's a natural consequence of my choices.
I'm over it now, I just have to keep moving forward. Thank you for replying.