I feel less raw than when it first happened. The feelings get easier to handle as time passes. I don't cry as much now. We didn't have a great relationship. I'm not a professional but she seemed like a narcissist to me. I mean, textbook stuff. She treated my younger sister like crap and messed her up even more than she messed me up. So it bothered me to feel these tender feelings. The worst time is when I'm watching TV and I see some product advertised and I think, "oh wow I wonder if mom would use that." then I remember...

It's so hard. I just started crying just typing this. Luckily its my day off.
Thanks for asking.