Hold onto yourself real hard, Hitch. I'm so sorry you're having to go thru this very tough stuff. Sucks that the only way through it is....through it!

You will emerge on the other side. Like everything else, this whole idea and procedures of divorce are a process....not an Event. I know it can be so very exhausting. I shall rattle beads and send all the good vibes I can lay my energy upon!

I like the idea of having something in your pocket to grasp. Many many years ago when I was having a hard time health-wise and my anxiety was fairly thru the roof, Crazyman sent me a little polished 'Worry-stone". I was like, WTH? But it was remarkably helpful. I sat thru lots of intense mediation/ counselling/emotional confrontation etc rubbing my thumb across the groove in said stone and mentally repeating 'This too shall pass..." It sounds wacky but it was very comforting.

Maybe you can find something of that nature? Beats a pet rock lol.

Many hugs, Hitch.
xo,

Chyia, wishing you fortitude