Please don't put yourself through this. Man, that's the thing that sucks about depression. Not only do we deal with people who say the same type of things to us, but we stigmatize ourselves as well. You know, we could do everything "right": choose the right parents, eat right, exercise, go to church, do every possible thing that society wants us to do - and still people are going to have depression. You didn't cause this and it is no reflection on you as a person. It's an illness, one that's serious enough that some people qualify for disability. Please don't be so hard on yourself.