Before I was medicated I was like you are now. I hope you don't take this the wrong way but I really think dbt is going to help you more than meds at this point. I really think dealing with the borderline stuff will help you immensely. You can find dbt skills online. I would focus on the distress tolerance ones for right now.

I really hope you're not offended. But right now I think it's best for you to find some coping skills you can use right now, until you find the right med combo....