We have been working hard in T, we as in the T helping me, to find what has made me happy here and to take with me what makes me happy and incorporate it into life with my H. Some things are simple. Pictures of my horses that I so dearly love. Things that I have painted, but other things like calmness, and contentment, and the ease of coming and going and talking with family. The ability to go to the store jsut becasue, the need to jsut drive around and clear my head. I need to be able to take these things with me. These things are very important and If I can;t find them and take them with me then I am not in the right place. If I can;t find happiness and contentment, if I can;t find peace of mind, if I can have some freedom then I know my answer. For that reason I am hanging on to what I have as far as a back up plan. The house I am in now I will keep because I hope I can find what I am looking for, but I can't be certain. After I am home for a while I will know more.

I do know I NEVER EVER!!!!! want to go back to the way things were and I think the T has measures put into place to protect me and my kids from ever letting that happen again.