I can relate you the me thing, to do things for me. My T has been talking about it also, finding something for me, not my family not my kids, not my siblings, but something I want to do, he always asks me what I wanted to do growing up, do you want to go back to school, finish your degree? Do you want to travel, is there anything that you have always wanted to do, and didn't!!! I have a hard time with this also, I have never ever done for me! I told him it scares the hell out of me to take that first step, how do you do something for yourself when you don't know how!!! So I hear what your saying. I know when I am ready to make that step that I will, right now I feel like a kid on her first day of school!!!