I'm so sorry you are going through this. I have a VERY low sex drive, even when stable. I used to think it was caused from my use of SSRI's, but now I think it's part of me/hormonal. I feel terribly guilty about it also, so I can relate to that. The difference is, my husband is very understanding and doesn't make me feel guilty. I understand that sex is important to your husband, I just really feel he said the wrong thing to you considering the state you are in. He probably didn't thing things through before responding. Someone who loves you is not going to have you put your life at risk over an orgasm. That is my take on it. Your husband was probably responding emotionally. I would try to get couples therapy for this issue before it spirals. Intimacy is much more than just sex.... You are more than just sex. Sex is important and I get that, but please remember what is most important here and that is your life! Please take care of yourself. I know you want to please your husband and see him happy. That is admirable.... But for now I think you should focus more on yourself and getting stable. Your sex drive might improve naturally once you are feeling better. (((Hugs)))