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Originally Posted by Ceridwen18
Your comment about self destruction is interesting. You're aware of what you are doing, and what you "should" be doing differently. You've posted this in the Depression forum, so I'm guessing that's the root of the problem.
When I am very depressed, I can't help myself. I simply can't. I know, in my rational mind, what I "should" do, but I have no motivation/ability/will to do them. I agree with sophiesmom that you have to get to a level of being okay before we can really work on improving.
If that means upping my meds, I do it. You mentioned your sexuality is affected by medication. I understand that. Mine is too, but as I'm female, it's obviously quite different!
Could not wanting to be on medication, when it might be the answer, be another self-destructive behaviour?
Feel free to argue and have another angsty rant!
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I put it in the Depression forum after some thought. It's probably more accurate to say that I have frequent bouts of depressed moods due to anxiety and poor choices I make in response to it. I was anxious before I was ever depressed or even particularly blue. And if I did all the things I listed in my OP, basically dealing with symptoms, I'd be in a position to work through my anxiety better, if that makes sense. That list is the the part of the iceberg that's apparent. The long term issues are beneath the surface.
My reluctance to use medication possibly being self destructive is an interesting point. I'll have to ponder that.
Thanks for responding.