I'm so sorry you are struggling right now. Are you hypo/manic? When I'm manic, it's very hard to settle on an idea..... And I often get ideas to go back to school for this, then that, then some other thing. I worked for 4 years at a cosmetic counter at a high end department store. I worked for one of the cosmetic companies and they trained me on skin care and makeup application. It might be a nice job for you to try and see if you are interested in Makeup artistry. It's a nice stepping stone and good for your resume.

Do you feel depressed when you push your boyfriend away? Or anxious and overwhelmed? We all need alone time now and again, but if you find you are pushing people away often, and that it's a pattern, I recommend getting help for the issue soon. I push people away when I'm depressed and several times in my life, I pushed everyone out and have been alone and that is just not healthy.

Take care of yourself. (((Hugs)))