I feel bad even complaining considering how bad some have it here. Anyway I am doing OK, I am stable. The only thing is I think my baseline is mild depression. Not bad depression, just bad enough to take away any gusto for life, or energy, or the want to do things.

Like people have hobbies, well it just sounds too exhausting to me. I can barely accomplish the things I have to do and have no energy to do anything else. Plus I have no desire to do anything either. If I had to sum my whole life up in a word it would be.... meh....

In the beginning (before mania) I was diagnosed with Major Depression. Tried several AD nothing really worked. Then mania happened and bad bad mania it is. I actually think my pdoc is mostly treating me for the mania because it is so bad. Not so much for depression. I did try wellbutrin a couple years back and it sent me so high that I had to stop taking it or risk a manic episode.

I guess what I am asking is it worth asking my pdoc to try AD? Is there any AD that can be used for bipolar 1 that don't cause mania or weight gain because my health is bad enough I cant do more weight gain.

I am not even sure if my pdoc would prescribe me AD and I will probably ponder asking him about this for months before I really get around to asking him. Its just the risk of a manic episode scares me so I am kind of nervous about even bringing it up.

Maybe I am just getting old and AD wont help this? Anyway I will stop complaining now. Thanks in advance.