Hey guys, Thanks so much for the responses - They really helped.
I am still so embarrassed at what happened. It wasn't anything untoward, other than I really was blatantly 'young' and scared and pleady. It doesn't even make sense, as I know they like me there. (I have handed my notice in and they want to take me on as a consultant after I leave.) Even more reason not to be worried about going home sick as I am leaving in a couple of months anyway!
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Originally Posted by Blogjects
because we don't read that you're happy to be treated with consideration. We hear that you are embarrassed. That you feel that this is something bad that happen.
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This one really hit home. I've been dwelling on this all afternoon. I think it will probably link back to my family - who won't do a single nice thing for me without throwing it back in my face somehow. Its been that way all my life - like being nice to me requires some kind of trade off that inevitably ends up not being worth it. Thats a pretty huge connection to make though, as of all the things I experienced from them, I didn't think that aspect was a particularly big problem.
I'm just so fed up of being a freak. I just want to be normal, and graceful, and dignified
