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Originally Posted by wintereyes
I just wanted to say that the mess of making things up in your imagination to the point where the fantasy feels as real (or even sometimes more real!) than real life is something I struggle with too. I'm probably misunderstanding your post somewhat, and unfortunately I don't have any good suggestions for helping it. But, you're not alone in feeling like that. It's really difficult to know who I am... a lot of life circumstances caused me to withdraw into my own world and then to kind of put on a mask just to get through daily life... not really being a part of it, but just enough to get by. But underneath that, I don't know where I went. I either have a real life fake me, or an imaginary fake me. Is that sort of what you're feeling? I hope you can find something to help make you feel better and move forward.
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Hi Wintereyes,
That is exactly how I'm feeling every day. I could make good use of my time and my life but nothing is happening; I just dont know what's there; I dont know what to do. The fake me makes me soo confused of what I should do or who to be. And because of that, I get easily influenced by what I see that seems interesting or intriguing to me; then I start becoming or admiring that thing/person. Then I change to another or feels like I'm changing into another person. You see, I could be so productive and have a great relationship with people( and stop the messed up emotions), and have a good life. But I just seem so lost. I dont know what to do. So every day, I just distract myself using the computer and the time goes by and so does my life. I feel like a zombie that's just going through life until it ends. I do have goals and things I wish to accomplish, but I have no motivation to do it. When it comes to doing them, I just become very lazy and do other things. And no matter how small the goal is I just can't seem to do them. I might be using this confusion to just run away from the problems I have to eventually fix, but every day when the day ends I regret everything. My whole life is made of regret, that I want to change into a better person; into a positive person, someone who is genuinely happy and confident of who I am and about others. But nothing seems to be changing even if I tell myself to or write down things I could be doing. Everything feels like a fake me I made up to run away from everything so I could get on by with life; even if deep down it's killing me and I don't even know if someone can help me when I don't even try to help myself. But thank you for telling me your issues and letting me know that I'm not alone. Really appreciate it. Thanks
