Well it seems a life time since I've last posted doesnt it? Its hard to pick a specific forum to put this in but its more about how well I'm doing in therapy thus far. For those who don't know me my new T is my 4th since 7th grade...and by gosh I found the perfect one for me!! . Parts of my therapy I enjoy make it seem so unreal because its so so great..thankfully it IS real =D.

I've now been seeing my T for 3 months therapy started off as always dredful and I was scared. I said to myself " i can't be weak anymore by keeping my feelings in I must explore them regardless of the out come". This started off with minior things, I began writing to her because I was scared to talk. She welcomed that it was so surreal . She told me to e-mail her if I needed her, or to call. I did this for about 3-5 weeks atleast twice usually the day after sessions when I regretfully didn't tell her what was needed.

Anyway I started writing down things, I first let her read a story in which explored a time span of a few months of last year. She gladly read i t and rememberd things from it . It was amazing. I then told her of my sexual complications of being confused, I told her this stuff my letters, I also spoke of my homosexual experience at a young age. And my addiction to pornography.

These things to her where nothing to worry about, we talked through them so so so smoothly, it felt good, tho I'm not 100% about my confusion I am on the route in therapy. We've talked about so many things such as : Where my depression came from, why i dont feel connected to important ppl like my parents, why I'm so scared, why I don't feel normal when I am, and tons of other stuff.

The next thing I've thought about talking to her about is my sexual/connection/attration with her, its natural right? Should I talk about this? I guess its ok to be scared about things we've not explored. I right her through the week when I dont see her, she reads each letter at the beginning of session...it feels so nice......
I love my T.......
God bless you all....
THanks! for Listening!