I feared I was plummeting into depression but now I don't think so. Yesterday and today, I keep getting these "moments" where I'm so grateful for everything, including being alive. Everything seem "right and good". Not hypomanic I'm pretty sure..... Just happy and very content in these moments. I've been glued to the toilet with my IBS and even that has not brought me down in the dumps.

My motivation is screwed up though. Things I need to do but I'm not: exercise, eat well, drink 8 glasses of water a day, clean my bedroom, do some laundry, go to the grocery store (so I can stop eating fast/convenient food. I was cutting myself some slack for awhile because it's only been about a month since I've been decently stable, but it's time to get the cattle prod out if I don't get off my butt soon. I really cannot expect to be well, living like I am.