Hugs, melmyers.
Speaking as someone who finds it nearly impossible to cry in front of anyone, I agree that you should just let those tears flow, honey.

Not crying in front of someone is nearly an automatic reflex for me at this point in my life. I practice deep breathing, I disconnect my attention from whatever is making me emotional, and I tell myself that I am okay.

When I do cry, I don't make a sound anyway. You could sit next to me in a movie theater and never know I was bawling my eyes out except for the horrible silent scream on my face.