I'll be able to see my therapist in a month, and I have a phone "check in" with him in two weeks. I'll also talk to my psychiatrist by phone in a couple weeks, or I can call her sooner if things get really bad. Not every day has been bad, but I've had steadily more and more bad days. Today is the worst it's been.

My support system is okay. My husband is supportive but doesn't do much to help me out around the house and stuff. He basically just tells me to do less, but he doesn't actually pick up the slack most of the time, which sucks but at least he doesn't pressure me to do stuff I can't manage. I have a really hard time reaching out to friends when I'm like this because I assume they don't like me, and that's a really hard belief for me to overcome.

A med adjustment might help, I just hate increasing the Lamictal up and up and up to infinity, which seems to be my pdoc's strategy. I just increased my Seroquel by a lot a few weeks ago, so another med change stresses me out. But if it doesn't get better, I'll have to do it I guess.