Throughout my life I have been hyper sensitive to my surroundings and those in my surroundings. I have always been the one who wants to help others and/or fix the situation at hand. My problem is that I know how to fix others but I have yet figured out how to fix myself. When I was 18 I went into Nursing and also became a EMT just so I could help others. Being in the Medical field I was able to successfully fill that need to help those around me and by doing so I avoided facing my own problems. How do I learn to face my own problems and solve them. I have avoided the truth for far to long and now I seem to be lost and alone. My world seems to be crumbling around me. My health is failing and I don't seem to even care. Many time I think my family would be better off if I just died and left this crazy world.