I am so sorry! I've never received a DUI, but I have done things which caused me to think my life was over and that I needed to end it all because of it. That is a terrible place to be and I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. My brother received a DUI years ago. It was expensive, but other than monetary loss, his life was not effected. He went on to get married and adopt 4 kids. Things are bad right now, but don't fall into thinking they will always be bad. We are here if you need us. Welcome to PC, I hope you will stick around so we can support you through this.