I feel like a lemon too. Like my parents, husband and kids won the unlucky lottery to get me. This is depressive thinking and not healthy so keep an eye on those thoughts and make sure not to feed into them if you can help it.

I'm so sorry you are dealing with so many health issues right now. I can relate and know how awful it feels to be so broken In so many different ways. I'm very sorry you will have trouble conceiving. I really can only imagine how difficult that would be. My heart goes out to you.

I'm very sick on the daily. I'm 41 and I'm always terrified of what I will feel like when I'm 80. I've already got terrible and painful arthritis, so aging is scary. I decided a few years ago that I would work out, gain muscle and be healthier at 80 than I am now. Maybe it's wishful thinking, but it keeps me hoping and hope is a good thing.

Great big hugs going your way (((hugs))). Keep hope alive.