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Originally Posted by SuperwomanBp2
I am so tired of feeling like a walking corpse one minute, aggravated the next and then good the following.
I feel I'm a stranger in my own body and it's messed up. I so desperately want off this ride. I never realized how crippling Bipolar can be until now. I have this nagging desire to go shopping and have sex, to the point it hurts, but I just don't have the energy to act upon it. I'm in hell and just relying on the hope my medication works.
Being in this mixed state is a nightmare. I'm exhausted, but can't sleep, because I can't turn off my brain. Why can't there be an on/off switch?
I just wish to feel like my old self again.
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*Hugs* You have support here. I can definitely relate, and you describe some of my own feelings when I have a mixed episode very well: "feeling like a stranger in your own body" and "wanting off that ride" so badly. Also, I get preoccupied with sex during episodes at times too. I hope your medication works for you soon. There's always hope, and things do get better, although it's a rollercoaster ride having Bipolar for sure.