I'm glad you are back. I'm sorry everything is so awful. You've been through an unbelievable amount in 2 weeks and I'm sure you need time to rest,recover and process it all. We're all here for you while you do that, as 15 pages of notes about where you are might tell you .

I'm so sad for you that you felt that desperate. I hope that you are able to find a more peaceful place in life.