Saw my pdoc this morning and she's not willing to take me off Zyprexa (yet). She thinks I haven't been stable long enough to mess with what we know works, even though I've gained at least 40lbs since starting it, probably more.

She is taking me off seroquel though which combined with the zyprexa might have contributed to my weight gain, but I don't think that it itself made me gain weight because I've been on up to 800mg of seroquel daily with absolutely no weight gain.

I'm also being taken off buspar which seems to have run its course and pooped out on me.

And she's adding Lyrica, off label for anxiety. Just a small dose twice a day. Technically I'm not supposed to start it until I'm off both the buspar and seroquel, but in my mind, I'm thinking how in the world am I supposed to go off anti-anxiety medications and not have anything to step in for them, so I'm starting it now.

I'm upset that she wouldn't talk about alternatives to zyprexa, especially since she said she'd look into it at my last appointment, but I will keep hounding her until we come up with something else because I weigh too much and it's not my fault or within my control.

Oh, and I've been on the following: Seroquel, Geodon, Latuda, and Abilify so those are not contenders in the came of pick a med for sing...so I'm thinking vraylar, saphris, invega or rexulti next.

And thus ends my recap/rant.